Sex Rehab With Dr. Drew

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Aired on Tuesday, Dec 22, 2009 (12/22/2009) at 01:00 AM

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00:03:30>> I'm going home sober.
00:03:32And my home has got to be safe for me too.
00:03:35>> You think that-- >> like maybe you should be sober too.
00:03:39>> You think you're all better ..
00:03:41>> No, I don't think I'm all better, lukas, but I've made a commitment to working on it.
00:03:46>> This isn't about me now.
00:03:50Are you crying, baby?
00:03:53>> [sniffles] Yeah, because it's really frustrating to be in the POSITION I'M IN AND [sniffles] Be working hard toward something.
00:04:00And, you know what?
00:04:01If you're not willing to, um, be supportive, then that's fine.
00:04:07That's your deal, lukas.
00:04:08>> I'm just a little-- a little teed off, you know?
00:04:12Let me call you back.
00:04:14>> Okay.
00:04:16[busy signal] >> How are you?
00:04:26>> My husband decided that it's, like, my issues and that he only drinks with me, and that I've been, like, brainwashed away from him.
00:04:38>> He said that?
00:04:40Oh, no.
00:04:41So he thinks you're different.
00:04:43Well, 'cause you are a little different.
00:04:44>> Yeah.
00:04:45>> That's the point.
00:04:46>> But he's like, "well, like, she signed up for this, I didn't," you know?
00:04:49>> Yeah.
00:04:50Which is true.
00:04:52>> He's right.
00:04:53>> He is right.
00:04:54>> But the reality is he is an integral party of my life.
00:04:58..be well, I need to address those issues.
00:05:05>> Right, so it's better to change together, then.
00:05:07'Cause if you don't, then it's kind of detrimental to the relationship.
00:05:11>> The end of it.
00:05:12You know what I mean?
00:05:13>> Yeah.
00:05:16..
00:05:18>> Kendra has admitted now that she's an alcoholic, and realized that in order to deal with it, she can't be around alcohol.
00:05:24This is gonna require some sacrifice on her husband lukas's part, and it's understandably taken him a little by surprise.
00:05:31I asked him to come to the prc for a session with kendra in the hope that we can convince him how crucial his support is to her recovery.
00:05:40>> Hello.
00:05:41>> Hello.
00:05:42>> What's the matter?
00:05:43>> Nothin'.
00:05:44>> You all right?
00:05:48>> [sniffles] >> You look like you're on the verge of tears.
00:05:54..
00:05:56..
00:05:57[sniffles] He basically just told me that these are all my problems and i ..
00:06:04[sniffles] >> You know, when one person starts to get healthier, everybody else reacts.
00:06:11When you start getting healthier, you're not the sick one anymore, so it forces everybody else to look at themself.
00:06:16>> Yeah.
00:06:17>> Which, as you know, is really, really challenging, really, really hard to do.
00:06:20>> Mm-hmm.
00:06:21>> So, usually, there's a reaction at first, you know?
00:06:24And I kind of have a feeling that's what this is.
00:06:27>> Give him a chance, okay?
00:06:28>> Yeah.
00:06:29>> All right, let's bring him in.
00:06:32Come have a seat.
00:06:33>> How are you guys?
00:06:34>> We're good. how are you?
00:06:34>> Hi.
00:06:36>> Hello.
00:06:38..where should we start this?
00:06:46Kendra had expressed some concerns that perhaps you weren't aware of where she was at or that you were feeling uncomfortable about the kinds of things she was starting to say now as a result of the changes she's going through in treatment.
00:06:59Can you speak to that a little bit?
00:07:00>> Uh, well, I didn't, you know, I didn't know she was going into all this to, like, kind of move farther away from me.
00:07:09>> I don't want to use--i really don't want you to leave this feeling like your relationship is threatened, 'cause that is not the goal here.
00:07:15The goal is to move you both along in a healthy way.
00:07:17>> Yep.
00:07:18>> And you should know this is the way it always is.
00:07:20This is a routine experience of couples when somebody's in treatment.
00:07:24What you're feeling is completely normal.
00:07:26>> And that's what I want to understand.
00:07:28Like, I want, when she gets out, to--i want to know the language and, like, the steps and so forth.
00:07:33How to make us better.
00:07:34..it's not about me, you know?
00:07:37>> Well, it's about each of you individually and you guys as a couple.
00:07:40>> Whenever any addiction is treated, there's always a big change in one person, and the other person--and so you-- in a relationship, you kind of fit like a lock and key.
00:07:49And all of a sudden, the key's changing.
00:07:51It's like, "well, wait a minute.
00:07:51That doesn't fit the way it used " well, the lock has to change too, so they start fitting together again.
00:07:56So as you move along, you come together repeatedly in the growth.
00:08:00Otherwise, one's down here and one's up here, going, "hey, " so one of two things happen.
00:08:04Either you pull the key back down where they were and nothing changes, or they stay apart.
00:08:11And neither do you want.
00:08:12You want to come along for the ride.
00:08:14>> Absolutely, absolutely.
00:08:15And I'm totally, absolutely, 100%, 110%, willing to do whatever my wife feels is right.
00:08:23>> Kendra.
00:08:26What's going on?
00:08:28..
00:08:31It's not about knowing the language.
00:08:34>> It's about doing the work.
00:08:35It's about doing the work.
00:08:36You have to do work too.
00:08:37Same work she's done, you gotta do.
00:08:39>> I-i'm totally down for that.
00:08:41>> I hear him say he's ready to do some work.
00:08:44>> Yeah.
00:08:45>> I'm here.
00:08:46I'm totally here, you know?
00:08:49I'm not half here, I'm here.
00:08:54>> Kendra is now dealing with two addictions, and if she's going to have any chance of success, she desperately needs the aftercare program.
00:09:02I'm afraid she's feeling that, somehow, participating in the program would jeopardize her marriage.
00:09:06I hope lukas can convince her otherwise, because if kendra chooses not to participate, i really fear for her recovery.
00:09:14>> I love you.
00:09:19>> So what's your plan when you get out here?
00:09:22What are you thinking?
00:09:23>> I think it's just gonna be easier for me to stay on a strict, straight program, you know, to try to go right into a ..
00:09:30>> I can't even trust my gut.
00:09:31I just don't know.
00:09:32That's how bad it is.
00:09:33LIKE, [sighs].
00:09:34..jumping OUT OF MY [bleep] SKIN JUST-- I need to just mellow, get mellow at my house and just kind of take it all in, 'cause it's just--there's so much.
00:09:44>> Yeah.
00:09:46>> And, like, my head's spinning.
00:09:48I'M JUST [bleep] WHFFT!
00:09:52[sighs] >> Phil is really on the fence about the aftercare program, and he's worried about leaving rehab in general.
00:09:59Since jill will be running the aftercare program, I asked her to meet with him to discuss some of his concerns about the future.
00:10:06>> I'm frightened to leave here.
00:10:08>> What's going on?
00:10:09>> I-i-i identified as a sex ..sure if I was a sex and love addict.
00:10:16>> Mm-hmm.
00:10:17>> And then I kind of think about my, um, past a little bit, and my relationships, and I was definitely a love addict.
00:10:25You know, and that's where I get confused with the intimacy issues as well.
00:10:29Like, are my intimate, like-- see, I 'cause I think snuggling is intimate, and sleeping with ..
00:10:34>> Sure.
00:10:35>> But other people think that getting to know a person inside is intimate, right?
00:10:38Is that where I'm missing-- I mean, like, where's the-- >> well, there's physical intimacy and being able to be close, you know, and there's emotional intimacy, where i start layer by layer showing you who I really am.
00:10:51That's true intimacy.
00:10:53>> Mm-hmm.
00:10:53>> When you're in your addiction, love and/or sex addiction, you're only gonna be bringing in and attracting people that are operating at that same frequency as you.
00:11:04Right?
00:11:05>> Yeah. no, definitely.
00:11:06>> So I think you should stay single for at least six months.
00:11:09>> I agree, I know I have to stay single for six months, but I'm frightened to leave here-- >> normally, I make people do a year.
00:11:16>> There's no way.
00:11:17>> I know, that's why i-- >> are you talking about sex?
00:11:21>> Sex, dating.
00:11:22>> How can I not have sex for six months?
00:11:24No, seriously.
00:11:25>> What's the biggest fear?
00:11:26>> [scoffs] >> Masturbation will be reintroduced, but sex with another human being will be off the table.
00:11:32>> IT'S GONNA MAKE ME [bleep] Crazy, that if I just masturbate and masturbate and masturbate, and I have no human touch, it's gonna-- the fact that we can't even-- DO YOU KNOW HOW [bleep] BAD I Need to spoon right now?
00:11:42Like, I'm jump--i'd rather spoon THAN HAVE SEX ANY [bleep] DAY Right now.
00:11:45Look at my face.
00:11:47I AM [bleep] BROKEN FROM THIS [bleep].
00:11:49This is not like what you think it's gonna be.
00:11:56>> Welcome to your graduation ceremony, where we take this opportunity to acknowledge this group.
00:12:01>> You've helped me to see a lot further than I could have ever hoped.
00:12:07>> I bet it feels strange to hear people talking about strength.
00:12:11You are actually allowing people to see that now.
00:12:14>> So at this point, I'd like the treatment staff to bring in a symbol of peace, and a very secret ingredient.
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00:17:01[knocking] >> Gentlemen, it's 7:00.
00:17:07It's the last morning.
00:17:08Get up.
00:17:10[laughing] Look at you gents.
00:17:12That's what you look like first thing in the morning.
00:17:14That's what I missed out on every morning.
00:17:16>> Nice.
00:17:19>> [grunting] Uncle phil!
00:17:21>> I CAN'T [bleep] WAIT TO GET Out of here.
00:17:23I really can't.
00:17:24So far, I don't know about ..
00:17:28Jill gave me a death sentence with six months of celibacy.
00:17:32I mean, that, to me, is like, god, I can't even think about that.
00:17:36It's killing me, you know?
00:17:37It's put me in a weird mood.
00:17:39>> All right, guys!
00:17:41We need to be ready.
00:17:42Graduation time.
00:17:45>> I am very nervous about graduation.
00:17:49Um, I'm really nervous to just jump back into life.
00:17:53Um, for the past eight years I've been penny flame from the moment I wake up to the moment i go to sleep.
00:17:59So I really am absolutely terrified, mostly because i don't know what's gonna happen.
00:18:04>> Okay, we're gonna have to move as a group, okay?
00:18:08This is it, it's the last time you have to listen to what i have to say.
00:18:13>> I'm just like--i'm just having, like, a lot of anxiety.
00:18:15Like I just am really stressed, and, like, the more I think about the more I'm stressed, then the more stressed I get.
00:18:21Of course, I want to be committed to aftercare, but I'm a little--i'm a little unsure, because nobody else here is, like, in a relationship right now, so I don't really have anyone that, like, relates to what I'm going through right now.
00:18:35>> Okay.
00:18:37[Carolina Liar's Show What I'm Looking For] ♪ ♪
00:18:44>> ♪ wait, I'm wrong ♪
00:18:49♪ should've done better ♪
00:18:50♪ than this ♪
00:18:53♪ please, I'll be strong ♪
00:18:58♪ I'm finding it hard ♪
00:18:59♪ to resist ♪
00:19:01>> we have finally reached the graduation ceremony.
00:19:04I am incredibly proud of these seven courageous patients.
00:19:07Today is their chance to be acknowledged for their work and to recognize the work of their peers.
00:19:13>> ♪ Oh, lord, I've been ♪
00:19:15♪ waiting for you ♪
00:19:17>> welcome, guys.
00:19:18Welcome to your graduation ceremony, where we take this opportunity to acknowledge this group who have worked so hard for the last three weeks.
00:19:27The way today is gonna work is each one of you will come up here and take a moment to really reflect upon the amount of progress you've made and give you an opportunity to give each other final parting thoughts.
00:19:38So, jenny, if you'd begin the process.
00:19:51>> Jenny, I never expected to meet anybody who would touch me as deeply as you have in the last few weeks.
00:20:01You have been my best friend throughout this adventure.
00:20:04I do believe in miracles.
00:20:06And you're the embodiment of every miracle that I would ever hope to see in another person.
00:20:12>> Thank you.
00:20:17>> Um, you know, it's hard to express when somebody's gone through so much change and worked so hard.
00:20:23We'd like to say on behalf of the treatment team, thank you for sharing the beautiful woman that jenny is.
00:20:29Sexual addiction, for the most part, is an intimacy problem.
00:20:31>> OH, YEAH. [laughs] >> What are you thinking?
00:20:34>> Wall.
00:20:35>> Yeah.
00:20:36What's on the other side of the wall?
00:20:39>> Um, hopefully a caring, sensitive person.
00:20:43Who could have real, like, meaningful relationships.
00:20:46>> That's what you want?
00:20:46>> Yeah.
00:20:48>> You've done an amazing amount so far.
00:20:50Keep it going.
00:20:51And we're here for you.
00:20:52>> Thank you.
00:20:54..
00:20:56When I came in here, I met these seven strangers, and now I'm leaving with some really beautiful friends.
00:21:05I'm grateful for every, single one of you.
00:21:08This has been the most amazing experience of my life.
00:21:12Thank you.
00:21:13[applause] ..
00:21:27I think that you're amazing.
00:21:30You're honest.
00:21:32You didn't pretend to be anything that you're not.
00:21:35>> I was just thinking about family members taking advantage of me.
00:21:39And, uh, not in just sexual ways, but also in, uh, terribly violent situations.
00:21:45>> I'm there with you.
00:21:46Just so you know.
00:21:47>> How old were you when you lost faith in your family?
00:21:50..i think the moment-- like two.
00:21:53>> Two?
00:21:54>> And I think everybody here just looks up to you.
00:21:58I know that I do.
00:22:00I love you.
00:22:01>> I love you too.
00:22:04..i don't know if you're aware how powerful some of the experiences I had with you were.
00:22:09They were like breathtaking.
00:22:12>> He would beat me, and then ..
00:22:16>> He'd initiate the sex thing then?
00:22:18>> Yeah.
00:22:19>> Whew.
00:22:20>> I felt utterly powerless.
00:22:23'Cause I was.
00:22:24>> Yeah.
00:22:27>> [sobbing] >> Thank you for sharing humanity, and allowing us to be in that space with you.
00:22:34I was deeply moved by a number of things, and so, for that, I thank you.
00:22:42>> I had no expectations when i came to this.
00:22:46And I got a lot.
00:22:48I got to tell the truth, after many years of totally being disabled from the truth.
00:22:55You know, we are as sick as our secrets.
00:22:59AND, UH, I HAD A LOT OF [bleep] Secrets.
00:23:02But most of all, I sat with each and every one of you and felt i couldn't have done any of this without you being there.
00:23:10I can't thank you enough, all of you.
00:23:12[applause] ..
00:23:28I think that your change here has been the most subtle outwardly, but I think inwardly, like, so dramatic.
00:23:35I think that you're incredible.
00:23:38You've shown yourself throughout this whole time to be dignified, strong, and the beautiful person that you are.
00:23:44I'm so happy that I got to know you.
00:23:48>> Ahh.
00:23:50>> Nicole, I think you have had a lot of change.
00:23:53>> I'm in a relationship right now.
00:23:55He does talk to me about our future and stuff like that, and no guy's ever done that before.
00:24:00>> Which is what you want, right?
00:24:02>> Yeah.
00:24:03I mean, I just want to feel like ..
00:24:06>> Absolutely you're worthy.
00:24:09>> I know groups are hard for you.
00:24:11A lot of your work is in individual.
00:24:13I hope you'll continue that.
00:24:15Those individual experiences are very, very powerful.
00:24:18..okay?
00:24:19>> Okay.
00:24:20[chuckles and sniffles] Um, it was really hard for me, 'cause I been living on my own since I was 16 years old.
00:24:28And I never had a roommate in my life.
00:24:30So to all of a sudden inherit six was really traumatic for me.
00:24:35My life is a revolving door.
00:24:37Like people just keep coming and going, coming and going.
00:24:40And that's, you know, so it's like I'm actually really used to abandonment.
00:24:45I'M PRETTY [bleep], LIKE, USED To it.
00:24:48Um, but it turned out to be really a beautiful experience.
00:24:51So thank you all for, um, showing me what it's like to have a family.
00:24:57..um, not abandoning me.
00:25:00Thank you.
00:25:02[applause] >> The courage it took to come here.
00:25:15And to say, "you know, I may " >> now's the point when you tell me what your aftercare plans are.
00:25:25Without meetings, without the regular support, without ongoing ..
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00:28:36>> Oh, boy.
00:28:38[laughter] Can I get a big tissue, like?
00:28:45>> Oh, james.
00:28:48You're a dope kid.
00:28:51You are an inspiration to all young men out there.
00:28:56>> What are you feeling?
00:28:57>> There's tears in your eyes.
00:28:58>> I just feel everybody's stress.
00:29:01Everybody's so different here.
00:29:03We can all try to relate, but we can't.
00:29:05We're all here for ourselves, and we gotta remember that, that let's fix ourselves first and then we can move on.
00:29:14>> You coming here and addressing that, you know, you want to change is really beautiful.
00:29:22Thank you.
00:29:28>> Well, sir, I wanted to acknowledge how difficult it is as a young man to do what you've done.
00:29:37>> You know, everything that i do, I'm always constantly thinking about, you know, what's next or-- >> is it masturbation?
00:29:43>> Yeah, I mean, it's keeping me locked up in my house pretty much, not letting me go check the waves, not letting me just kind of live a normal life.
00:29:53>> I've treated a lot of young men, and very few have embraced change the way you have.
00:29:58Thank you.
00:30:00>> Jeez, you guys.
00:30:02It's like a family now.
00:30:04I've grown to love all you guys so much.
00:30:07I would have never been able to do this without you guys.
00:30:09I would have ran away the first day probably.
00:30:12I was just going through so much stuff.
00:30:15You know, I love you guys all so much, and just a great blessing, and I thank you very much.
00:30:21[applause] >> Amber.
00:30:36You gave me the most, and without really knowing it.
00:30:39It was you that day that threw the eggs at the wall, and I will never ever forget as long as I live.
00:30:46You look like an angel.
00:30:49>> This is for the guys who [bleep] ME ONE [bleep] TIME.
00:30:52 you don't even come back for more?
00:30:56I had to prove everything to the world.
00:30:58It was exhausting and lonely.
00:31:01>> And what do you want to tell the world?
00:31:03>> That I'm good enough.
00:31:05>> I saw you come alive, and come alive as the vibrant, strong, empowered woman I know you are.
00:31:12The woman that will make great decisions for the rest of your life.
00:31:18>> Ah.
00:31:19>> I bet it feels strange to hear people talking about strength, right?
00:31:24>> Very.
00:31:24>> You are an extremely powerful, strong woman.
00:31:29And you're actually allowing people to see that now.
00:31:31It's probably something that used to scare you.
00:31:33But now you can see it is part of who amber is.
00:31:35You can own that strength.
00:31:37So congratulations.
00:31:38>> Thank you.
00:31:39Oh, boy.
00:31:42Yeah, I was here a short while ..detoxing.
00:31:46For that whole time I was sober, I was just--i was still stuck on some unavailable guy, and that's not sobriety.
00:31:57But I think I got a really good shot at it now.
00:32:03And I thank you so much, really.
00:32:05Thank you all, thank you.
00:32:07[applause] >> Oh, boy.
00:32:13>> Ooh, phil.
00:32:16>> Hi.
00:32:18Well, a couple things.
00:32:19>> Okay.
00:32:21[laughter] >> I think you're the whole package, everything.
00:32:26You got the exterior.
00:32:27You're funny, you're charming, and you're courageous.
00:32:30The courage it took to come here and to say, "you know, " >> when amber says, "why didn't " that's me.
00:32:41That's what I do.
00:32:43How many people like her are out there 'cause of me, you know?
00:32:47>> Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
00:32:48>> And I learned that men do feel.
00:32:51Because I thought that they were heartless.
00:32:54Gosh, you just affected me a lot.
00:32:56[mouths words] >> Nice work.
00:33:02>> Thank you.
00:33:02>> You were the first to really jump on in.
00:33:05And we all thank you for that.
00:33:07It opened up the door to everyone being open emotionally, and that takes courage.
00:33:12I'm not worried about you.
00:33:13Congratulations.
00:33:15..
00:33:19I'm gonna finally be a grown-up.
00:33:23And I'm honored that all of you have come to me and helped me, and I've been able to help you.
00:33:28And for that, I'm truly grateful.
00:33:30It's a miracle.
00:33:31Thank you, guys.
00:33:32I love you all, I really do.
00:33:34[applause] >> Kendra jade rossi.
00:33:44I want to say that you're an amazing person, and I know it was really hard for you to, like, talk about what you did in group.
00:33:53>> You don't leave your bed?
00:33:54>> No.
00:33:56>> Could you do that if your husband wasn't home?
00:33:58>> He's--we're always together.
00:34:00>> Is he your drug?
00:34:01>> No.
00:34:03Why are you smiling?
00:34:04>> He's a little bit of your drug.
00:34:07>> I really hope that you get out of bed every day.
00:34:11You know, just call someone and go have lunch, or call me, or, you know, just do something, but not isolate, you know?
00:34:18'Cause the world is just missing one less beautiful person out there when you isolate and you stay in your room all day.
00:34:24I wish you well.
00:34:25>> [mouths words] >> Once again, courage and honesty.
00:34:30Really very courageous.
00:34:32It's been a real honor and a pleasure and a privilege.
00:34:35Keep going.
00:34:36>> Okay.
00:34:37My new family.
00:34:39It's so hard for me today.
00:34:42But the truth of the matter is I don't want to leave you guys today or any other day.
00:34:46I hope that you're all always in my life.
00:34:49I want to thank you guys especially because you really have absolutely changed my life, and I thank you for it.
00:34:57[applause] >> I've listened to a lot of ceremonies, and that was probably universally the most moving testimonials I've ever heard.
00:35:12And I'm not surprised.
00:35:14It's a credit to the work you've all done.
00:35:17And now's the point when you tell me what your aftercare plans are.
00:35:19We've recommended an intensive outpatient program.
00:35:22So we're gonna go down the line.
00:35:23You're gonna tell me what your plans are.
00:35:24Jenny.
00:35:31>> Do I have time for it?
00:35:32>> It's a lot of time.
00:35:33It's a lot of commitment.
00:35:34>> I have to work.
00:35:35I have stuff to do.
00:35:36>> Your sobriety needs to come first.
00:38:47>> Now's the point when you tell me what your aftercare plans are.
00:38:50We've recommended an intensive outpatient program.
00:38:52So we're gonna go down the line.
00:38:53You're gonna tell me what your plans are.
00:38:55Jenny.
00:38:57 drew, I'm getting a date, and I'm going straight to the bar.
00:39:00[laughter] I'm not.
00:39:04I'm gonna do all of the aftercare.
00:39:08>> Wonderful, excellent.
00:39:09We'll see you on monday.
00:39:13Duncan.
00:39:14>> Well, I thought long and hard about it, dr. drew.
00:39:17And I thought that I would do the aftercare plan.
00:39:21[applause] >> Nicole, plan?
00:39:29..
00:39:33Maybe in the future I do want to do the aftercare plan.
00:39:37>> So you're not ready for an intensive program now?
00:39:39>> No.
00:39:40>> Are you willing to do any individual therapy?
00:39:42>> Yes.
00:39:43>> Okay, so we'll give you some referrals for that.
00:39:45Obviously not as good a plan as an intensive program.
00:39:48But you've still got the full support of us and your new family.
00:39:51>> Okay.
00:39:52>> So we wish you the best.
00:39:53>> Okay.
00:39:55>> James.
00:39:56>> DR. DREW. [chuckles] Um, gosh, I would love to, but I'm getting ready to go on tour for the next eight months.
00:40:04And, you know, my career is something that's really gonna help me, and I think that it's gonna be my rehab.
00:40:09And it's gonna be the next step in my life.
00:40:12And you guys have opened the doors.
00:40:15>> Be careful.
00:40:16It's slippery out there without meetings, without the regular support, without ongoing work.
00:40:21If you have trouble, come on back.
00:40:23Door is always open, okay?
00:40:24>> I'll definitely keep in touch.
00:40:26>> All right.
00:40:27>> I'll call you.
00:40:27>> Good luck.
00:40:31Amber, what do you think?
00:40:34>> I get frustrated sometimes and pessimistic 'cause I feel like I have to do all this therapy just to live a normal life.
00:40:41But I also realize that if i don't get somewhat healthy I'll have no chance at all.
00:40:49So I would like to try it.
00:40:51>> The intensive program?
00:40:52>> The intensive program.
00:40:52>> Great, excellent, good.
00:40:57Phil.
00:40:59>> I know how hard going through this process was for me, you know?
00:41:03I had no idea what I was, you know, was thinking.
00:41:07And then I took a deep, hard, look at myself, and I absolutely need it.
00:41:12Period.
00:41:12>> All in.
00:41:13>> Yes.
00:41:14>> Fantastic.
00:41:18Kendra, what do you think?
00:41:21>> I thought about it long and hard today.
00:41:25Do I need it?
00:41:26Do I have time for it?
00:41:27>> It's a lot of time.
00:41:28It's a lot of commitment.
00:41:29>> I have to work.
00:41:30I have stuff to do.
00:41:31>> Your sobriety needs to come first.
00:41:41>> The answer is yes.
00:41:42I'm absolutely committed to my recovery.
00:41:45[applause] >> So at this point I'd like the treatment staff to bring in a symbol that we thought would be appropriate.
00:41:57Each of you will hold in these baskets a symbol of peace, love, forgiveness, and a very secret ingredient.
00:42:05>> Ohh! aah! oh!
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00:45:21>> We wanted to create a moment that really marked the progress you've made and really acknowledge the work you've done.
00:45:27So at this point I'd like the treatment staff to bring in a symbol that we thought would be appropriate.
00:45:31Each of you will hold-- >> thank you, sharky.
00:45:33In each of these baskets is a white dove-- historically a symbol of peace, love, forgiveness, and a very secret ingredient, faith.
00:45:45It's been a pleasure, a privilege, an honor.
00:45:47I cannot express how pleased i am to have been a part of this.
00:45:50And I thank you for that.
00:45:51Congratulations.
00:45:53Thank you.
00:45:54On the count of three, let's release these symbols to eternity.
00:45:59..two...three.
00:46:03Here we go.
00:46:05>> Oh!
00:46:06>> Ha!
00:46:07>> Ahh!
00:46:16>> There we go.
00:46:19>> Fly, little one.
00:46:21Fly.
00:46:25>> Okay, I love you.
00:46:26>> I love you too.
00:46:27>> I love you.
00:46:29>> Hello, darling.
00:46:34>> This has been an amazing journey.
00:46:38>> I don't want to go.
00:46:40>> Just three weeks ago, eight people entered the pasadena recovery center to seek treatment for their sex and love addictions.
00:46:47>> How in god's name am I going to go 21 days without having sex?
00:46:56>> This addiction is so shame-evoking that simply coming forward to get help was an incredible act of courage.
00:47:03>> This is harder than any other addiction, I would say.
00:47:07>> I've been depressed.
00:47:08I've wanted to kill myself.
00:47:09I'm the loneliest person on the [bleep] PLANET.
00:47:12>> They have faced trauma that they'd buried for a lifetime.
00:47:15>> I was molested.
00:47:17It's my first childhood memories.
00:47:19>> What happened?
00:47:22I lost everything.
00:47:25>> And they realized for the first time that they are not alone.
00:47:29>> Nothing you ever do will let me down.
00:47:33>> It has been an incredibly painful journey.
00:47:36>> I had flashbacks of being raped.
00:47:38>> Although not everyone made it to the end.
00:47:41This is not working.
00:47:42>> You know what, you're A [bleep] DOCTOR, DREW.
00:47:44I'M PACKED AND [bleep] READY.
00:47:48>> I know that they all have been changed by their time here.
00:47:51>> ♪ I'm coming to terms ♪
00:47:54♪ I'm starting to learn ♪
00:47:57♪ this ain't all ♪
00:47:59♪ it's cracked up to be ♪
00:48:02♪ 'cause I'm using you ♪
00:48:05♪ you're using me ♪
00:48:07♪ it's never as easy ♪
00:48:10♪ as we believe ♪
00:48:13[laughter] ♪ ♪
00:48:21>> let's all hug.
00:48:22Ohh.
00:48:25>> Some of these patients will stumble on the path to recovery.
00:48:28But addiction is a lifelong battle, a battle that I know ultimately they can win.
00:48:44>> ♪ Show me ♪
00:48:44♪ what I'm looking for ♪
00:48:48♪ show me what I'm looking ♪
00:49:26>> after group, I just wanted to be alone.
00:49:30And so I went up into the sauna where pretty much no one else could fit in there and just sat there and cried.
00:49:36[sniffles] >> Jenna?
00:49:41>> [sobs, sniffles] >> Jenna.
00:49:45Oh.
00:49:45>> [sobs more loudly] >> Come on out.
00:49:47All right, all right, come-- come on out here with me.
00:49:49>> I don't want to.
00:49:50>> Like, we used to be friends.
00:49:52But the thing is, I can't take the negativity.
00:49:54'Cause honestly if I was to hang out with her all the time, I would probably turn negative.
00:49:58>> Be depressed.
00:49:58>> Yeah.
00:49:59>> They all were positive to my face and then decided to gang up on me.
00:50:04>> She didn't even realize it herself, how negative she was.
00:50:07I just knew that steven and i needed to make a breakthrough with her.
00:50:10Okay, this is what you need to do.
00:50:12You gotta be bigger than that.
00:50:13Be more positive than that.
00:50:15And let it turn around on them.
00:50:17>> I'm not letting the girls drive me out of the house.
00:50:19I'm here for me.
00:50:20If they don't think I try hard, [bleep] THEM.
00:50:27>> Ladies, will you come down here, please?
00:50:29Lesson number six at mytough loveboot camp is all about deal breakers--yours and his.
00:50:35For any relationship to progress, all the cards have to be on the table.
00:50:39Then you can figure out if you want to continue dating.
00:50:41Ladies, you all look very nice, which is only appropriate, because it's going to be your time to be in the spotlight.
00:50:47>> Oh!
00:50:48[murmuring] >> I'll meet you there.
00:50:50>> It's about time to get our time in the spotlight.
00:50:52I'm thinking some kind of like beauty thing, you know, being romantic.
00:50:55So I'm excited.
00:51:04[dramatic drumbeats] >> Oh, no.
00:51:10>> I see the--the jury on the side of me, and they're all men, " I see joann in the black robe, and I see steve dressed up, and I'm like, "well, maybe we're doing like a movie part or maybe it's a soap " so I'm excited.
00:51:26I'm like, "okay, I'm ready for " >> ladies, welcome totough love court.
00:51:33Today each one of you will defend yourselves against a charge for a dating felony, crime of love, or just inappropriate behavior.
00:51:43>> Oh, my gosh.
00:51:44>> And you'll be judged by this all-male jury, who will deem you dateable or undateable.
00:51:50Women often put men on trial for their past.
00:51:52So I thought it was time to give the women a taste of their own medicine.
00:51:56What the girls need to realize is that for a man it's not so much about what you did, but how you make your case.
00:52:01The honorable love judge, joann ward, will preside.
00:52:05tough love boot camp vs. alicia.
00:52:09>> Oh!
00:52:12I was thinking about every bad thing I've ever done to any guy in my entire life.
00:52:17I don't really need everybody and their mother to hear about it.
00:52:21So I was a little nervous.
00:52:22>> Alicia, you are here to face the charge of cheating on your fiance.
00:52:27>> Ohh.
00:52:31That is, by far, the worst thing I've ever done.
00:52:33And then he's gotta throw "fiance" in there.
00:52:35I mean, i--i got--i gotta tell my story before you just throw it out there.
00:52:40>> Cheating is probably the number one deal breaker for men.
00:52:43But if alicia could come off remorseful and convincing that it won't happen again, there is a chance these guys will let her off the hook.
00:52:49Alicia, how long were you engaged?
00:52:51..a week.
00:52:56>> Did he know you cheated?
00:52:58>> I think he had a pretty good idea.
00:53:00>> So did the guy that you cheated on your fiance with mean anything to you?
00:53:04>> Looking back at it now, no.
00:53:06But at that point I thought he did.
00:53:10>> So you hooked up with him.
00:53:12Maybe you talked to him for a couple of weeks.
00:53:14You realized you wanted to be with your fiance instead.
00:53:17>> Felt a lot of pressure from my family to be back with my fiance.
00:53:22>> And how did it end?
00:53:24..i had met another guy.
00:53:26[chuckles] >> And did you end up dating that other guy?
00:53:31>> I did.
00:53:32>> Did you start dating him before or after you ended the engagement?
00:53:35>> Before.
00:53:36>> So you actually cheated on your fiance twice.
00:53:39>> Yes.
00:53:41>> You may be dismissed.
00:53:46>>Tough loveboot camp vs.
00:53:48Kanisha.
00:53:51>> Kanisha.
00:53:53Your charge is the slicing of tires and keying of an ex-boyfriend's car.
00:54:00>> [sputtering, laughing] >> Another no-go for men: Destroying personal property.
00:54:07Kanisha has a lot of explaining to do if she doesn't want to be deemed undateable by the jury of men.
00:54:13So was this planned?
00:54:14>> It was spur of the moment.
00:54:17>> How did you do it?
00:54:19>> It was midnight.
00:54:20And me and my friend, we dressed in all black and made sure the coast was clear.
00:54:24And I keyed his car with my keys and I slashed all four tires with a butcher knife.
00:54:31>> All four?
00:54:32>> All four.
00:54:35>> How much did you key his car?
00:54:37>> I went around the whole entire car.
00:54:39>> [quiet chuckling] >> Did you ever apologize for it?
00:54:42>> No, I did not.
00:54:43But he hurt me really bad.
00:54:45Payback is a bitch.
00:54:50>> I think we've heard enough, kanisha.
00:54:56>>Tough loveboot camp vs. liz.
00:55:02>> Liz, you're here to face the charge of being a make out queen.
00:55:05>> [laughter] >> And a tease.
00:55:08>> Oh!
00:55:11Basically what it comes down to is I got morals but I also got needs.
00:55:16But there's a lot of risk involved.
00:55:18THERE'S STDs, THERE'S GETTING Preggo, I mean-- I just go as far as--as I can.
00:55:24Maybe like a boob touch.
00:55:25>> [laughter] >> I'm just saying, I have needs but i-i--at the end of the day, I also want to be okay with myself.
00:55:31..
00:55:32>> Mm-hmm.
00:55:33>> How many guys would you make out with?
00:55:34>> I mean, there is the margarita mondays, and taco tuesdays, and wild west wednesdays, thirsty thursday, given friday, saturday, and an occasional sunday funday.
00:55:43>> Do you consider yourself a tease?
00:55:48>> Yeah.
00:55:50>> You're dismissed.
00:55:52>> I just want to be loved.
00:55:54I'm just lonely.
00:55:56Is it wrong to want someone to hold you?
00:55:58Is that a crime of love, to be held at night and to be in a nook?
00:56:02I think not.
00:56:03I think not.
00:56:04>>Tough loveboot camp vs.
00:56:06Rocky.
00:56:08[bangs gavel] >> Rocky, you are charged with having a zoo for a house.
00:56:12>> [laughter] >> How many pets do you have?
00:56:17>> 32.
00:56:18>> I'm sorry, could you repeat that, please?
00:56:21>> 32.
00:56:22>> 32.
00:56:24>> I have, uh, like, four turtles, a guinea pig, a bunny, 12 mice.
00:56:29 a pit bull, a papillon, a little poodle that I just rescued from next door, a miniature pinscher, and a chihuahua.
00:56:38Eight cats.
00:56:40>> I mean, I knew she was a crazy lunatic, but I didn't know she had 32 pets.
00:56:46It's no wonder that rocky smells like animal butt.
00:56:49>> Did you come up with any songs for your pets?
00:56:51>> When I was training chichi, you know, to go on the paper before he went outside, I'd go, ♪ he goes pee-pee ♪
00:56:58♪ on the paper ♪
00:56:59>> [laughing] >> ♪ He goes ♪
00:57:03♪ pee-pee on the paper ♪
00:57:05♪ and he loves to poo-poo ♪
00:57:06♪ on the paper ♪
00:57:08♪ he goes pee-pee ♪
00:57:09♪ on the paper ♪
00:57:11♪ and he poo-poos ♪
00:57:12♪ on the paper ♪
00:57:14[laughs] >> Whew.
00:57:19>>Tough loveboot camp vs.
00:57:22Tina.
00:57:25>> So steve gets to tina, and I'm thinking it's gonna be the most retarded crime ever.
00:57:30What could tina have possibly done?
00:57:32>> Tina.
00:57:33>> Hi, steve.
00:57:35>> You are here to face a very serious charge.
00:57:37>> Ooh, gosh.
00:57:39>> You are accused of having an affair with a married man.
00:57:45>> Tina!
00:57:48..
00:57:50Gentlemen of the jury, does anyone have any thoughts?
00:57:53>> She could deflate a hard-on at 300 yards.
00:57:55>> Seems that she probably shouldn't even be let into society, much less a relationship.
00:57:59..steve, can i-- >> you have to ask adam whether or not he's ready to be a father figure.
00:58:04>> I'm scared that he's gonna walk away.
00:58:07..
00:58:07I'm not gonna allow you to feel bad for yourself.
00:58:09God as my witness.
00:58:10You are going to walk out of this boot camp a changed woman.
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00:02:49>> I'm going home sober.
00:02:52And my home has got to be safe for me too.
00:02:55>> You think that-- >> like maybe you should be sober too.
00:02:59>> You think you're all better ..
00:03:01>> No, I don't think I'm all better, lukas, but I've made a commitment to working on it.
00:03:06>> This isn't about me now.
00:03:09Are you crying, baby?
00:03:12>> [sniffles] Yeah, because it's really frustrating to be in the POSITION I'M IN AND [sniffles] Be working hard toward something.
00:03:20And, you know what?
00:03:21If you're not willing to, um, be supportive, then that's fine.
00:03:26That's your deal, lukas.
00:03:28>> I'm just a little-- a little teed off, you know?
00:03:32Let me call you back.
00:03:33>> Okay.
00:03:36[busy signal] >> How are you?
00:03:46>> My husband decided that it's, like, my issues and that he only drinks with me, and that I've been, like, brainwashed away from him.
00:03:57>> He said that?
00:04:00Oh, no.
00:04:01So he thinks you're different.
00:04:02Well, 'cause you are a little different.
00:04:04>> Yeah.
00:04:05>> That's the point.
00:04:05>> But he's like, "well, like, she signed up for this, I didn't," you know?
00:04:08>> Yeah.
00:04:10Which is true.
00:04:11>> He's right.
00:04:12>> He is right.
00:04:13>> But the reality is he is an integral party of my life.
00:04:18..be well, I need to address those issues.
00:04:24>> Right, so it's better to change together, then.
00:04:26'Cause if you don't, then it's kind of detrimental to the relationship.
00:04:31>> The end of it.
00:04:32You know what I mean?
00:04:33>> Yeah.
00:04:36..
00:04:37>> Kendra has admitted now that she's an alcoholic, and realized that in order to deal with it, she can't be around alcohol.
00:04:44This is gonna require some sacrifice on her husband lukas's part, and it's understandably taken him a little by surprise.
00:04:50I asked him to come to the prc for a session with kendra in the hope that we can convince him how crucial his support is to her recovery.
00:05:00>> Hello.
00:05:00>> Hello.
00:05:01>> What's the matter?
00:05:02>> Nothin'.
00:05:03>> You all right?
00:05:07>> [sniffles] >> You look like you're on the verge of tears.
00:05:14..
00:05:16..
00:05:17[sniffles] He basically just told me that these are all my problems and i ..
00:05:23[sniffles] >> You know, when one person starts to get healthier, everybody else reacts.
00:05:30When you start getting healthier, you're not the sick one anymore, so it forces everybody else to look at themself.
00:05:36>> Yeah.
00:05:37>> Which, as you know, is really, really challenging, really, really hard to do.
00:05:40>> Mm-hmm.
00:05:41>> So, usually, there's a reaction at first, you know?
00:05:43And I kind of have a feeling that's what this is.
00:05:46>> Give him a chance, okay?
00:05:48>> Yeah.
00:05:48>> All right, let's bring him in.
00:05:51Come have a seat.
00:05:52>> How are you guys?
00:05:53>> We're good. how are you?
00:05:54>> Hi.
00:05:55>> Hello.
00:05:58..where should we start this?
00:06:05Kendra had expressed some concerns that perhaps you weren't aware of where she was at or that you were feeling uncomfortable about the kinds of things she was starting to say now as a result of the changes she's going through in treatment.
00:06:18Can you speak to that a little bit?
00:06:20>> Uh, well, I didn't, you know, I didn't know she was going into all this to, like, kind of move farther away from me.
00:06:29>> I don't want to use--i really don't want you to leave this feeling like your relationship is threatened, 'cause that is not the goal here.
00:06:34The goal is to move you both along in a healthy way.
00:06:36>> Yep.
00:06:37>> And you should know this is the way it always is.
00:06:39This is a routine experience of couples when somebody's in treatment.
00:06:43What you're feeling is completely normal.
00:06:45>> And that's what I want to understand.
00:06:47Like, I want, when she gets out, to--i want to know the language and, like, the steps and so forth.
00:06:52How to make us better.
00:06:54..it's not about me, you know?
00:06:56>> Well, it's about each of you individually and you guys as a couple.
00:07:00>> Whenever any addiction is treated, there's always a big change in one person, and the other person--and so you-- in a relationship, you kind of fit like a lock and key.
00:07:08And all of a sudden, the key's changing.
00:07:10It's like, "well, wait a minute.
00:07:11That doesn't fit the way it used " well, the lock has to change too, so they start fitting together again.
00:07:16So as you move along, you come together repeatedly in the growth.
00:07:19Otherwise, one's down here and one's up here, going, "hey, " so one of two things happen.
00:07:23Either you pull the key back down where they were and nothing changes, or they stay apart.
00:07:30And neither do you want.
00:07:32You want to come along for the ride.
00:07:33>> Absolutely, absolutely.
00:07:34And I'm totally, absolutely, 100%, 110%, willing to do whatever my wife feels is right.
00:07:42>> Kendra.
00:07:45What's going on?
00:07:48..
00:07:51It's not about knowing the language.
00:07:54>> It's about doing the work.
00:07:55It's about doing the work.
00:07:56You have to do work too.
00:07:57Same work she's done, you gotta do.
00:07:59>> I-i'm totally down for that.
00:08:00>> I hear him say he's ready to do some work.
00:08:03>> Yeah.
00:08:04>> I'm here.
00:08:06I'm totally here, you know?
00:08:09I'm not half here, I'm here.
00:08:14>> Kendra is now dealing with two addictions, and if she's going to have any chance of success, she desperately needs the aftercare program.
00:08:21I'm afraid she's feeling that, somehow, participating in the program would jeopardize her marriage.
00:08:26I hope lukas can convince her otherwise, because if kendra chooses not to participate, i really fear for her recovery.
00:08:34>> I love you.
00:08:38>> So what's your plan when you get out here?
00:08:41What are you thinking?
00:08:42>> I think it's just gonna be easier for me to stay on a strict, straight program, you know, to try to go right into a ..
00:08:49>> I can't even trust my gut.
00:08:51I just don't know.
00:08:51That's how bad it is.
00:08:53LIKE, [sighs].
00:08:54..jumping OUT OF MY [bleep] SKIN JUST-- I need to just mellow, get mellow at my house and just kind of take it all in, 'cause it's just--there's so much.
00:09:04>> Yeah.
00:09:05>> And, like, my head's spinning.
00:09:08I'M JUST [bleep] WHFFT!
00:09:12[sighs] >> Phil is really on the fence about the aftercare program, and he's worried about leaving rehab in general.
00:09:19Since jill will be running the aftercare program, I asked her to meet with him to discuss some of his concerns about the future.
00:09:26>> I'm frightened to leave here.
00:09:27>> What's going on?
00:09:28>> I-i-i identified as a sex ..sure if I was a sex and love addict.
00:09:36>> Mm-hmm.
00:09:36>> And then I kind of think about my, um, past a little bit, and my relationships, and I was definitely a love addict.
00:09:45You know, and that's where I get confused with the intimacy issues as well.
00:09:48Like, are my intimate, like-- see, I 'cause I think snuggling is intimate, and sleeping with ..
00:09:54>> Sure.
00:09:54>> But other people think that getting to know a person inside is intimate, right?
00:09:58Is that where I'm missing-- I mean, like, where's the-- >> well, there's physical intimacy and being able to be close, you know, and there's emotional intimacy, where i start layer by layer showing you who I really am.
00:10:10That's true intimacy.
00:10:12>> Mm-hmm.
00:10:13>> When you're in your addiction, love and/or sex addiction, you're only gonna be bringing in and attracting people that are operating at that same frequency as you.
00:10:23Right?
00:10:24>> Yeah. no, definitely.
00:10:25>> So I think you should stay single for at least six months.
00:10:29>> I agree, I know I have to stay single for six months, but I'm frightened to leave here-- >> normally, I make people do a year.
00:10:36>> There's no way.
00:10:37>> I know, that's why i-- >> are you talking about sex?
00:10:40>> Sex, dating.
00:10:41>> How can I not have sex for six months?
00:10:43No, seriously.
00:10:45>> What's the biggest fear?
00:10:46>> [scoffs] >> Masturbation will be reintroduced, but sex with another human being will be off the table.
00:10:52>> IT'S GONNA MAKE ME [bleep] Crazy, that if I just masturbate and masturbate and masturbate, and I have no human touch, it's gonna-- the fact that we can't even-- DO YOU KNOW HOW [bleep] BAD I Need to spoon right now?
00:11:01Like, I'm jump--i'd rather spoon THAN HAVE SEX ANY [bleep] DAY Right now.
00:11:05Look at my face.
00:11:06I AM [bleep] BROKEN FROM THIS [bleep].
00:11:08This is not like what you think it's gonna be.
00:11:15>> Welcome to your graduation ceremony, where we take this opportunity to acknowledge this group.
00:11:21>> You've helped me to see a lot further than I could have ever hoped.
00:11:26>> I bet it feels strange to hear people talking about strength.
00:11:30You are actually allowing people to see that now.
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00:16:06[knocking] >> Gentlemen, it's 7:00.
00:16:12It's the last morning.
00:16:13Get up.
00:16:15[laughing] Look at you gents.
00:16:17That's what you look like first thing in the morning.
00:16:19That's what I missed out on every morning.
00:16:21>> Nice.
00:16:23>> [grunting] Uncle phil!
00:16:26>> I CAN'T [bleep] WAIT TO GET Out of here.
00:16:28I really can't.
00:16:29So far, I don't know about ..
00:16:33Jill gave me a death sentence with six months of celibacy.
00:16:37I mean, that, to me, is like, god, I can't even think about that.
00:16:40It's killing me, you know?
00:16:42It's put me in a weird mood.
00:16:44>> All right, guys!
00:16:45We need to be ready.
00:16:47Graduation time.
00:16:50>> I am very nervous about graduation.
00:16:53Um, I'm really nervous to just jump back into life.
00:16:58Um, for the past eight years I've been penny flame from the moment I wake up to the moment i go to sleep.
00:17:04So I really am absolutely terrified, mostly because i don't know what's gonna happen.
00:17:09>> Okay, we're gonna have to move as a group, okay?
00:17:13This is it, it's the last time you have to listen to what i have to say.
00:17:17>> I'm just like--i'm just having, like, a lot of anxiety.
00:17:20Like I just am really stressed, and, like, the more I think about the more I'm stressed, then the more stressed I get.
00:17:26Of course, I want to be committed to aftercare, but I'm a little--i'm a little unsure, because nobody else here is, like, in a relationship right now, so I don't really have anyone that, like, relates to what I'm going through right now.
00:17:40>> Okay.
00:17:41[Carolina Liar's Show What I'm Looking For] ♪ ♪
00:17:49>> ♪ wait, I'm wrong ♪
00:17:53♪ should've done better ♪
00:17:55♪ than this ♪
00:17:58♪ please, I'll be strong ♪
00:18:02♪ I'm finding it hard ♪
00:18:04♪ to resist ♪
00:18:05>> we have finally reached the graduation ceremony.
00:18:08I am incredibly proud of these seven courageous patients.
00:18:12Today is their chance to be acknowledged for their work and to recognize the work of their peers.
00:18:17>> ♪ Oh, lord, I've been ♪
00:18:19♪ waiting for you ♪
00:18:22>> welcome, guys.
00:18:23Welcome to your graduation ceremony, where we take this opportunity to acknowledge this group who have worked so hard for the last three weeks.
00:18:32The way today is gonna work is each one of you will come up here and take a moment to really reflect upon the amount of progress you've made and give you an opportunity to give each other final parting thoughts.
00:18:43So, jenny, if you'd begin the process.
00:18:55>> Jenny, I never expected to meet anybody who would touch me as deeply as you have in the last few weeks.
00:19:05You have been my best friend throughout this adventure.
00:19:09I do believe in miracles.
00:19:11And you're the embodiment of every miracle that I would ever hope to see in another person.
00:19:17>> Thank you.
00:19:22>> Um, you know, it's hard to express when somebody's gone through so much change and worked so hard.
00:19:28We'd like to say on behalf of the treatment team, thank you for sharing the beautiful woman that jenny is.
00:19:33Sexual addiction, for the most part, is an intimacy problem.
00:19:36>> OH, YEAH. [laughs] >> What are you thinking?
00:19:39>> Wall.
00:19:40>> Yeah.
00:19:41What's on the other side of the wall?
00:19:44>> Um, hopefully a caring, sensitive person.
00:19:47Who could have real, like, meaningful relationships.
00:19:50>> That's what you want?
00:19:51>> Yeah.
00:19:53>> You've done an amazing amount so far.
00:19:55Keep it going.
00:19:56And we're here for you.
00:19:57>> Thank you.
00:19:59..
00:20:00When I came in here, I met these seven strangers, and now I'm leaving with some really beautiful friends.
00:20:10I'm grateful for every, single one of you.
00:20:12This has been the most amazing experience of my life.
00:20:17Thank you.
00:20:18[applause] ..
00:20:32I think that you're amazing.
00:20:35You're honest.
00:20:36You didn't pretend to be anything that you're not.
00:20:39>> I was just thinking about family members taking advantage of me.
00:20:44And, uh, not in just sexual ways, but also in, uh, terribly violent situations.
00:20:50>> I'm there with you.
00:20:50Just so you know.
00:20:51>> How old were you when you lost faith in your family?
00:20:55..i think the moment-- like two.
00:20:57>> Two?
00:20:58>> And I think everybody here just looks up to you.
00:21:03I know that I do.
00:21:05I love you.
00:21:06>> I love you too.
00:21:08..i don't know if you're aware how powerful some of the experiences I had with you were.
00:21:14They were like breathtaking.
00:21:17>> He would beat me, and then ..
00:21:21>> He'd initiate the sex thing then?
00:21:23>> Yeah.
00:21:24>> Whew.
00:21:25>> I felt utterly powerless.
00:21:28'Cause I was.
00:21:29>> Yeah.
00:21:32>> [sobbing] >> Thank you for sharing humanity, and allowing us to be in that space with you.
00:21:38I was deeply moved by a number of things, and so, for that, I thank you.
00:21:46>> I had no expectations when i came to this.
00:21:51And I got a lot.
00:21:53I got to tell the truth, after many years of totally being disabled from the truth.
00:22:00You know, we are as sick as our secrets.
00:22:03AND, UH, I HAD A LOT OF [bleep] Secrets.
00:22:06But most of all, I sat with each and every one of you and felt i couldn't have done any of this without you being there.
00:22:15I can't thank you enough, all of you.
00:22:17[applause] ..
00:22:33I think that your change here has been the most subtle outwardly, but I think inwardly, like, so dramatic.
00:22:40I think that you're incredible.
00:22:42You've shown yourself throughout this whole time to be dignified, strong, and the beautiful person that you are.
00:22:49I'm so happy that I got to know you.
00:22:53>> Ahh.
00:22:55>> Nicole, I think you have had a lot of change.
00:22:57>> I'm in a relationship right now.
00:22:59He does talk to me about our future and stuff like that, and no guy's ever done that before.
00:23:05>> Which is what you want, right?
00:23:07>> Yeah.
00:23:07I mean, I just want to feel like ..
00:23:10>> Absolutely you're worthy.
00:23:14>> I know groups are hard for you.
00:23:16A lot of your work is in individual.
00:23:17I hope you'll continue that.
00:23:19Those individual experiences are very, very powerful.
00:23:22..okay?
00:23:23>> Okay.
00:23:25[chuckles and sniffles] Um, it was really hard for me, 'cause I been living on my own since I was 16 years old.
00:23:32And I never had a roommate in my life.
00:23:34So to all of a sudden inherit six was really traumatic for me.
00:23:40My life is a revolving door.
00:23:42Like people just keep coming and going, coming and going.
00:23:45And that's, you know, so it's like I'm actually really used to abandonment.
00:23:50I'M PRETTY [bleep], LIKE, USED To it.
00:23:52Um, but it turned out to be really a beautiful experience.
00:23:56So thank you all for, um, showing me what it's like to have a family.
00:24:01..um, not abandoning me.
00:24:04Thank you.
00:24:06[applause] >> The courage it took to come here.
00:24:20And to say, "you know, I may " >> now's the point when you tell me what your aftercare plans are.
00:24:29Without meetings, without the regular support, without ongoing ..
00:24:34Be careful.
00:27:41>> Oh, boy.
00:27:43[laughter] Can I get a big tissue, like?
00:27:49>> Oh, james.
00:27:53You're a dope kid.
00:27:55You are an inspiration to all young men out there.
00:28:00>> What are you feeling?
00:28:01>> There's tears in your eyes.
00:28:03>> I just feel everybody's stress.
00:28:05Everybody's so different here.
00:28:07We can all try to relate, but we can't.
00:28:10We're all here for ourselves, and we gotta remember that, that let's fix ourselves first and then we can move on.
00:28:18>> You coming here and addressing that, you know, you want to change is really beautiful.
00:28:27Thank you.
00:28:33>> Well, sir, I wanted to acknowledge how difficult it is as a young man to do what you've done.
00:28:41>> You know, everything that i do, I'm always constantly thinking about, you know, what's next or-- >> is it masturbation?
00:28:48>> Yeah, I mean, it's keeping me locked up in my house pretty much, not letting me go check the waves, not letting me just kind of live a normal life.
00:28:57>> I've treated a lot of young men, and very few have embraced change the way you have.
00:29:02Thank you.
00:29:05>> Jeez, you guys.
00:29:06It's like a family now.
00:29:08I've grown to love all you guys so much.
00:29:11I would have never been able to do this without you guys.
00:29:13I would have ran away the first day probably.
00:29:17I was just going through so much stuff.
00:29:20You know, I love you guys all so much, and just a great blessing, and I thank you very much.
00:29:26[applause] >> Amber.
00:29:40You gave me the most, and without really knowing it.
00:29:44It was you that day that threw the eggs at the wall, and I will never ever forget as long as I live.
00:29:50You look like an angel.
00:29:53>> This is for the guys who [bleep] ME ONE [bleep] TIME.
00:29:57 you don't even come back for more?
00:30:01I had to prove everything to the world.
00:30:03It was exhausting and lonely.
00:30:05>> And what do you want to tell the world?
00:30:08>> That I'm good enough.
00:30:10>> I saw you come alive, and come alive as the vibrant, strong, empowered woman I know you are.
00:30:17The woman that will make great decisions for the rest of your life.
00:30:22>> Ah.
00:30:24>> I bet it feels strange to hear people talking about strength, right?
00:30:28>> Very.
00:30:29>> You are an extremely powerful, strong woman.
00:30:33And you're actually allowing people to see that now.
00:30:35It's probably something that used to scare you.
00:30:37But now you can see it is part of who amber is.
00:30:40You can own that strength.
00:30:41So congratulations.
00:30:42>> Thank you.
00:30:44Oh, boy.
00:30:47Yeah, I was here a short while ..detoxing.
00:30:51For that whole time I was sober, I was just--i was still stuck on some unavailable guy, and that's not sobriety.
00:31:01But I think I got a really good shot at it now.
00:31:07And I thank you so much, really.
00:31:09Thank you all, thank you.
00:31:11[applause] >> Oh, boy.
00:31:17>> Ooh, phil.
00:31:21>> Hi.
00:31:22Well, a couple things.
00:31:24>> Okay.
00:31:25[laughter] >> I think you're the whole package, everything.
00:31:31You got the exterior.
00:31:32You're funny, you're charming, and you're courageous.
00:31:35The courage it took to come here and to say, "you know, " >> when amber says, "why didn't " that's me.
00:31:46That's what I do.
00:31:48How many people like her are out there 'cause of me, you know?
00:31:51>> Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
00:31:53>> And I learned that men do feel.
00:31:56Because I thought that they were heartless.
00:31:58Gosh, you just affected me a lot.
00:32:01[mouths words] >> Nice work.
00:32:06>> Thank you.
00:32:07>> You were the first to really jump on in.
00:32:10And we all thank you for that.
00:32:11It opened up the door to everyone being open emotionally, and that takes courage.
00:32:16I'm not worried about you.
00:32:18Congratulations.
00:32:20..
00:32:24I'm gonna finally be a grown-up.
00:32:28And I'm honored that all of you have come to me and helped me, and I've been able to help you.
00:32:33And for that, I'm truly grateful.
00:32:35It's a miracle.
00:32:36Thank you, guys.
00:32:37I love you all, I really do.
00:32:38[applause] >> Kendra jade rossi.
00:32:49I want to say that you're an amazing person, and I know it was really hard for you to, like, talk about what you did in group.
00:32:58>> You don't leave your bed?
00:32:59>> No.
00:33:00>> Could you do that if your husband wasn't home?
00:33:03>> He's--we're always together.
00:33:05>> Is he your drug?
00:33:06>> No.
00:33:07Why are you smiling?
00:33:09>> He's a little bit of your drug.
00:33:12>> I really hope that you get out of bed every day.
00:33:15You know, just call someone and go have lunch, or call me, or, you know, just do something, but not isolate, you know?
00:33:22'Cause the world is just missing one less beautiful person out there when you isolate and you stay in your room all day.
00:33:28I wish you well.
00:33:29>> [mouths words] >> Once again, courage and honesty.
00:33:35Really very courageous.
00:33:36It's been a real honor and a pleasure and a privilege.
00:33:39Keep going.
00:33:41>> Okay.
00:33:42My new family.
00:33:44It's so hard for me today.
00:33:47But the truth of the matter is I don't want to leave you guys today or any other day.
00:33:50I hope that you're all always in my life.
00:33:54I want to thank you guys especially because you really have absolutely changed my life, and I thank you for it.
00:34:02[applause] >> I've listened to a lot of ceremonies, and that was probably universally the most moving testimonials I've ever heard.
00:34:17And I'm not surprised.
00:34:18It's a credit to the work you've all done.
00:34:21And now's the point when you tell me what your aftercare plans are.
00:34:24We've recommended an intensive outpatient program.
00:34:26So we're gonna go down the line.
00:34:27You're gonna tell me what your plans are.
00:34:29Jenny.
00:34:35>> Do I have time for it?
00:34:37>> It's a lot of time.
00:34:38It's a lot of commitment.
00:34:39>> I have to work.
00:34:39I have stuff to do.
00:34:40>> Your sobriety needs to come first.
00:38:22>> Now's the point when you tell me what your aftercare plans are.
00:38:24We've recommended an intensive outpatient program.
00:38:26So we're gonna go down the line.
00:38:28You're gonna tell me what your plans are.
00:38:30Jenny.
00:38:31 drew, I'm getting a date, and I'm going straight to the bar.
00:38:35[laughter] I'm not.
00:38:39I'm gonna do all of the aftercare.
00:38:42>> Wonderful, excellent.
00:38:44We'll see you on monday.
00:38:47Duncan.
00:38:48>> Well, I thought long and hard about it, dr. drew.
00:38:52And I thought that I would do the aftercare plan.
00:38:56[applause] >> Nicole, plan?
00:39:03..
00:39:07Maybe in the future I do want to do the aftercare plan.
00:39:11>> So you're not ready for an intensive program now?
00:39:13>> No.
00:39:15>> Are you willing to do any individual therapy?
00:39:17>> Yes.
00:39:17>> Okay, so we'll give you some referrals for that.
00:39:20Obviously not as good a plan as an intensive program.
00:39:23But you've still got the full support of us and your new family.
00:39:26>> Okay.
00:39:26>> So we wish you the best.
00:39:28>> Okay.
00:39:29>> James.
00:39:31>> DR. DREW. [chuckles] Um, gosh, I would love to, but I'm getting ready to go on tour for the next eight months.
00:39:38And, you know, my career is something that's really gonna help me, and I think that it's gonna be my rehab.
00:39:43And it's gonna be the next step in my life.
00:39:46And you guys have opened the doors.
00:39:49>> Be careful.
00:39:51It's slippery out there without meetings, without the regular support, without ongoing work.
00:39:56If you have trouble, come on back.
00:39:58Door is always open, okay?
00:39:59>> I'll definitely keep in touch.
00:40:00>> All right.
00:40:01>> I'll call you.
00:40:02>> Good luck.
00:40:06Amber, what do you think?
00:40:08>> I get frustrated sometimes and pessimistic 'cause I feel like I have to do all this therapy just to live a normal life.
00:40:16But I also realize that if i don't get somewhat healthy I'll have no chance at all.
00:40:23So I would like to try it.
00:40:25>> The intensive program?
00:40:26>> The intensive program.
00:40:27>> Great, excellent, good.
00:40:32Phil.
00:40:34>> I know how hard going through this process was for me, you know?
00:40:38I had no idea what I was, you know, was thinking.
00:40:41And then I took a deep, hard, look at myself, and I absolutely need it.
00:40:46Period.
00:40:47>> All in.
00:40:48>> Yes.
00:40:48>> Fantastic.
00:40:53Kendra, what do you think?
00:40:55>> I thought about it long and hard today.
00:40:59Do I need it?
00:41:01Do I have time for it?
00:41:02>> It's a lot of time.
00:41:03It's a lot of commitment.
00:41:04>> I have to work.
00:41:05I have stuff to do.
00:41:06>> Your sobriety needs to come first.
00:41:16>> The answer is yes.
00:41:17I'm absolutely committed to my recovery.
00:41:19[applause] >> So at this point I'd like the treatment staff to bring in a symbol that we thought would be appropriate.
00:41:31Each of you will hold in these baskets a symbol of peace, love, forgiveness, and a very secret ingredient.
00:41:39>> Ohh! aah! oh!
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00:45:35>> We wanted to create a moment that really marked the progress you've made and really acknowledge the work you've done.
00:45:41So at this point I'd like the treatment staff to bring in a symbol that we thought would be appropriate.
00:45:45Each of you will hold-- >> thank you, sharky.
00:45:48In each of these baskets is a white dove-- historically a symbol of peace, love, forgiveness, and a very secret ingredient, faith.
00:46:00It's been a pleasure, a privilege, an honor.
00:46:02I cannot express how pleased i am to have been a part of this.
00:46:05And I thank you for that.
00:46:06Congratulations.
00:46:07Thank you.
00:46:08On the count of three, let's release these symbols to eternity.
00:46:14..two...three.
00:46:18Here we go.
00:46:20>> Oh!
00:46:21>> Ha!
00:46:21>> Ahh!
00:46:30>> There we go.
00:46:34>> Fly, little one.
00:46:35Fly.
00:46:39>> Okay, I love you.
00:46:40>> I love you too.
00:46:42>> I love you.
00:46:44>> Hello, darling.
00:46:49>> This has been an amazing journey.
00:46:52>> I don't want to go.
00:46:55>> Just three weeks ago, eight people entered the pasadena recovery center to seek treatment for their sex and love addictions.
00:47:02>> How in god's name am I going to go 21 days without having sex?
00:47:11>> This addiction is so shame-evoking that simply coming forward to get help was an incredible act of courage.
00:47:17>> This is harder than any other addiction, I would say.
00:47:22>> I've been depressed.
00:47:22I've wanted to kill myself.
00:47:24I'm the loneliest person on the [bleep] PLANET.
00:47:26>> They have faced trauma that they'd buried for a lifetime.
00:47:30>> I was molested.
00:47:32It's my first childhood memories.
00:47:34>> What happened?
00:47:37I lost everything.
00:47:40>> And they realized for the first time that they are not alone.
00:47:44>> Nothing you ever do will let me down.
00:47:47>> It has been an incredibly painful journey.
00:47:50>> I had flashbacks of being raped.
00:47:53>> Although not everyone made it to the end.
00:47:55This is not working.
00:47:56>> You know what, you're A [bleep] DOCTOR, DREW.
00:47:59I'M PACKED AND [bleep] READY.
00:48:03>> I know that they all have been changed by their time here.
00:48:06>> ♪ I'm coming to terms ♪
00:48:09♪ I'm starting to learn ♪
00:48:12♪ this ain't all ♪
00:48:13♪ it's cracked up to be ♪
00:48:16♪ 'cause I'm using you ♪
00:48:19♪ you're using me ♪
00:48:22♪ it's never as easy ♪
00:48:24♪ as we believe ♪
00:48:28[laughter] ♪ ♪
00:48:35>> let's all hug.
00:48:37Ohh.
00:48:39>> Some of these patients will stumble on the path to recovery.
00:48:42But addiction is a lifelong battle, a battle that I know ultimately they can win.
00:48:58>> ♪ Show me ♪
00:48:59♪ what I'm looking for ♪
00:49:02♪ show me what I'm looking ♪
00:49:41>> so after the elimination, everyone is safe, but i realized, from here on out, i am on my own.
00:49:47I can't trust anyone anymore.
00:49:51>> As soon as dan leaves to take out the trash, dalen comes up to me, kind of talking about the elimination.
00:49:56>> Was I being unloyal?
00:50:01>> I don't think so.
00:50:02>> For voting dan?
00:50:05>> You should have threw his ass under the bus some more.
00:50:07>> Dan is the oddball out right now, and I have to stick with who I know has my back, and they're gonna vote for dan, so i need to ride with 'em.
00:50:15>> We all went in there a day ago and said he should not be here.
00:50:20Me and miss ebony have an alliance.
00:50:22No matter what, we should be in the final two.
00:50:24We've brought dalen along with us to say, "hey, we'll get you to the final three.
00:50:28After that, you speak to " >> and even if I did not have a reason to vote dan up, it's strategy.
00:50:39And I mean, why do I have to call you "poprah"?
00:50:41'Cause you're not a mixture between puffy and oprah.
00:50:44>> The elimination was horrible.
00:50:46Dalen is so pissed off at poprah.
00:50:50You have no oprah-esque qualities.
00:50:52>> And no puff qualities.
00:50:54THAT IS SOME [bleep] YOU Fabricating.
00:50:55If I got to call you "poprah," " >> [laughs] >> From now on, that's what you got to call me.
00:51:02>> "No, no, ma'am.
00:51:03I'M THESE [bleep] IN YOUR MOUTH.
00:51:04When you address me, say these [bleep] IN YOUR MOUTH.
00:51:07" "EXCUSE ME, MR. [bleep] IN MY " [laughter] >> Anybody home?
00:51:15>> And in walks poprah, the fat spawn of satan.
00:51:21[dramatic music] ♪♪ ♪♪
00:51:41Captioning byCaptionMax www.captionmax.com I'm tired of seeing her.
00:51:46Why won't she just get hit by a bus?
00:51:48>> What's up? how you doing?
00:51:50Dalen gives me a look, and i know exactly what that look means.
00:51:53>> Like, I just wish she would just go the hell away.
00:51:56>> I have a meeting with mr.
00:51:57Combs.
00:51:58He wants me to really give him kind of give him my final assessment on who's who, what's what.
00:52:03>> Poprah says that she's here to do one-on-ones, because she is the ears and eyes for mr.
00:52:07Combs.
00:52:08>> All right, let's get it poppin' then.
00:52:10>> I'm like, "great, get this [bleep] OVER WITH." >> You have more ethics than ivory.
00:52:14Ivory got more hustle than you.
00:52:15>> Is that experience or hustle?
00:52:16>> I think it's hustle.
00:52:18>> Okay.
00:52:18>> I think it's hustle.
00:52:19What scares me a little bit about ebony is, ebony doesn't seem to always assert herself.
00:52:24Are you too sweet and kind and ladylike that when you got to cut a bitch, you won't--you know what I'm saying?
00:52:29>> Well, I went into elimination and took two out in one round.
00:52:31YOU ARE VERY [bleep] SELFISH.
00:52:34That's why you do not deserve to be here.
00:52:36I went in there, and I cut a bitch.
00:52:39Poprah says to me that I've got to step up more and be a leader.
00:52:43I am not a competitor to be slept on.
00:52:45>> Now get it.
00:52:46>> Okay.
00:52:46>> All right.
00:52:47>> If you sleep on me, you will never wake up, honey.
00:52:50>> One of the reasons I honestly think, ivory, we've bumped heads is because we're so much alike.
00:52:54The biggest thing I worry about with you is being willing to do almost anything to win, and you can't do that.
00:53:00Even though she is game, she got so much game that she don't know when to stop playing.
00:53:04I think that you can do anything that you put your freaking head to as long as you keep your integrity.
00:53:09>> The biggest compliment that you can get is when someone says "i see a lot of you in me," and at the end of the day, as everyone said, "who would I like " it's ivory.
00:53:19>> To get this job, you're gonna have to show diddy that you are assertive enough to be able to delegate, execute, and command control over a situation when it's necessary.
00:53:28He doesn't give a damn about playing politics, who likes you, and all of that.
00:53:31>> I'm not gonna fight with people for pointless reasons.
00:53:33I think I can do it in a way that doesn't attack people.
00:53:35>> Sounds like another one of your freaking speeches, like you do sound like you're running for political office.
00:53:40Cast your ballot for daniel the diplomat.
00:53:43>> I think I had a centralized role, but a very effective role, and I completed everything asked of me to the utmost ability.
00:53:50>> [mimicking marching band music] >> I respect what she has to say, but you don't fight with somebody who's fighting based on passion, not on reason.
00:54:00>> Hi, mister man.
00:54:02>> I'm just gonna keep it real.
00:54:03I DON'T LIKE HER, SO [bleep] Whatever she has to say and whatever she believes in.
00:54:07>> So tell me, dalen, why should you freaking be here?
00:54:09All I see is a cute face and some nice clothes.
00:54:13I mean, what the hell's going on with you?
00:54:15>> Honestly, kim, I really don't like having conversations with you.
00:54:21>> But there is gonna be a lot of people you don't like, baby.
00:54:23This business isn't about making friends.
00:54:24It's about making money.
00:54:25Dalen holds everything in.
00:54:27>> Why didn't you say something?
00:54:28I seen you not saying nothing.
00:54:29Why didn't you say something?
00:54:30>> I've seen you put a lot of time into how you look, how you dress, and then hide in the corner like a little bitch, don't speak up.
00:54:36>> See, now, why do you have to use profanity?
00:54:38Why can't you talk like an adult?
00:54:40You're 45, almost 45 years old.
00:54:42>> Sweetheart, I'm 41, and guess what, I did more when I was 25-- >> so talk like an adult.
00:54:46But you don't know what I've done in my life.
00:54:48You don't know where I came-- >> well, that's what I'm asking you to tell me.
00:54:50>> You don't know my hustle.
00:54:51You don't know my grind.
00:54:51>> Well, let's hear it.
00:54:52He's so worried about looking weak that he comes off all tight and bottled up.
00:54:57>> Oh, my god.
00:54:58I been working since I was 14 years old doing any and everything that I could get my hands on.
00:55:04I've started businesses.
00:55:05I've studied abroad.
00:55:07I got two degrees under my belt by the age of 23.
00:55:08Came home and started a business.
00:55:10You know why I started my business?
00:55:11'Cause my father got stricken with cancer, and I came home to work with my mom and help my family start a business.
00:55:16Everything I've done for my life has been for somebody else.
00:55:19I'm here 'cause I want to do this for myself.
00:55:20SO THAT'S WHAT THE [bleep] I'M Here for.
00:55:22I feel disrespected by you telling me that I don't grind, i don't work, when that's all I've BEEN DOING MY WHOLE [bleep] Life.
00:55:28SO THAT'S THE [bleep] TRUTH.
00:55:32>> So why you holding it in, dalen?
00:55:34Why do I have to talk to you like this to just get you-- >> 'cause it ain't everybody's business.
00:55:39>> But the thing about it is, don't you realize-- >> YOU GOT [bleep] IN YOUR LIFE You don't want-- >> yes, my parents died four months apart when I was 16.
00:55:45>> Exactly.
00:55:46>> I was on fire when I was five months old.
00:55:48>> Exactly.
00:55:48>> People don't know my story.
00:55:49>> It is not for everybody to know.
00:55:51>> Guess what, though.
00:55:52The story don't have any value if you don't share it with somebody so you can empower and inspire someone else.
00:55:59I know it hurts.
00:56:01I know it's scary, dalen.
00:56:04I feel you.
00:56:08>> And honestly, I could care less.
00:56:11>> Give me a hug.
00:56:13>> And now you're asking me to give you a hug.
00:56:15WHAT THE [bleep] FOR?
00:56:17[bleep], THAT'S YOUR PROBLEM.
00:56:18IT AIN'T GOT [bleep] TO DO WITH Me.
00:56:21>> [whispering] I KNOW HOW IT Feels.
00:56:23>> Yeah, you should have died in that fire back in the day, and that's square business.
00:56:28Got the trapeze artists to come out in they black leotards, flying out the ceiling, man.
00:56:32>> And the conductors kind of really leading this.
00:56:34>> Are y'all talking about the same event that we trying to put on?
00:56:36>> Steal?
00:56:37That's treacherous.
00:56:38For a charity?
00:56:39>> Tell you that you figure it out, or we cancel it.
00:56:42>> They took us and knocked us all the way back down to ground zero.
00:56:46>> Hell, no. hell, no. hell, no.
00:56:50[phone ringing] >> Report to bad boy immediately.
00:56:53>> I don't know what it could possibly be about, honestly.
00:56:57>> And the end of the day, there is a weak link in there, and we do not need no weak links.
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